I've Looked At Life....

Bows and flows of angel hair and ice cream castles in the air and feather canyons everywhere, I’ve looked at clouds that way. But now they only block the sun, they rain and snow on everyone. So many things I would have done but clouds got in my way. I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now, from up and down, and still somehow it’s cloud illusions I recall. I really don’t know clouds at all. Moons and Junes and ferris wheels, the dizzy dancing way that you feel as every fairy tale comes real; I’ve looked at love that way. But now it’s just another show. You leave ‘em laughing when you go and if you care, don’t let them know, don’t give yourself away. I’ve looked at love from both sides now, from give and take, and still somehow it’s love’s illusions that I recall. I really don’t know love at all. Tears and fears and feeling proud, to say “I love you” right out loud, dreams and schemes and circus crowds, I’ve looked at life that way. But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say I’ve changed. Something’s lost but something’s gained in living every day. I’ve looked at life from both sides now, from win and lose, and still somehow it’s life’s illusions I recall. I really don’t know life at all. “Both Sides Now” by Joni Mitchell from the 1969 album “Clouds”

***************************************** Next week I start a new round of chemo and while I am not looking forward to it I do not have the same sense of dread with which I approached the first phase of treatment.It is amazing what the support of family, friends (some known only via the web) and an amazing medical team can do for ones' outlook on life. I have starting counting the positives that I have encountered during my life rather than recalling the negatives. Hello,Pollyanna!